I was playing RAN this morning up until around 4pm, and I've noticed something so obvious yet I can't seem to stop scorning it. 'It' refers to the word I bet most of (Filipino) online gamers hate: "ASA".

      "Asa" kind of translates to "you wish" or "keep dreaming/hoping". I've found this word quite annoying and I've had genocidal thoughts about wiping out the unruly and uncivilized players off the face of the Earth.

      This morning, I was training at MP Hole (Fury [2]) when I died. Unfortunately, my ring fell, and some biatch or manbiatch took it and when I asked for it, he/she just said "asa" and started leveling up again. It saddens me to think that things are also like this in the 'real world'. People like those really make me angry and I could just imagine them in real life as high school dropouts and substance abusers who try to let off some steam by annoying other players. I know for a fact that my thought of them is just a fantasy, but then by the way they're acting, it's as if they want others to believe they really are like that.

      I wouldn't blame those model-type beauties who pretend to play online games to keep pretending. I'm sure some of them feel the same way when they think that it's useless to try to make friends or have a meaningful conversation with a looter, 'sawsaw' / kill stealer, or a potty mouth (online of course). I'm not saying I'm one of them, but other people apart from those ladies might also feel the same way and not play at all.

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      I went to Angeli's house after playing RAN for more than 7 hours straight. I just chilled at her place, and we joined the fiesta after a while. Klawit Street sure is lively and community-oriented. Her cousin got us to watch some documentation named "Zeitgeist" and it kind of made sense. The ideology presented in the video looked full of meaning at first but I guess I found something to think about in the end.

      The idea in the film was that there are conspiracies everywhere so that someone will be able to manipulate the people through their thoughts and emotions. I've never seen/watched/heard a conspiracy theory so well thought of. Angeli's cousin's idea on the other hand is quite the same thing, but he focused on the fact that there is a reason for everything, and even emotions can be explained by logic and science. I don't remember if he also said something about religion. It was supposedly only there to keep other people's hopes up or something.

      My idea now is that all of the above may be true, but what good is seeing the logic in everything if everything feels like nothing? Those emotion-inducing chemicals in my brain were there for a reason: to make me feel good. For me, nothing beats trying to live life as if it were a fantasy. Being logical is important but there are some things that beat logic, and it's what gives our lives meaning. No matter how senseless our purpose in life may be, we all have the right to live like we want to.

      I was playing RAN this morning up until around 4pm, and I've noticed something so obvious yet I can't seem to stop scorning it. 'It' refers to the word I bet most of (Filipino) online gamers hate: "ASA".

      "Asa" kind of translates to "you wish" or "keep dreaming/hoping". I've found this word quite annoying and I've had genocidal thoughts about wiping out the unruly and uncivilized players off the face of the Earth.

      This morning, I was training at MP Hole (Fury [2]) when I died. Unfortunately, my ring fell, and some biatch or manbiatch took it and when I asked for it, he/she just said "asa" and started leveling up again. It saddens me to think that things are also like this in the 'real world'. People like those really make me angry and I could just imagine them in real life as high school dropouts and substance abusers who try to let off some steam by annoying other players. I know for a fact that my thought of them is just a fantasy, but then by the way they're acting, it's as if they want others to believe they really are like that.

      I wouldn't blame those model-type beauties who pretend to play online games to keep pretending. I'm sure some of them feel the same way when they think that it's useless to try to make friends or have a meaningful conversation with a looter, 'sawsaw' / kill stealer, or a potty mouth (online of course). I'm not saying I'm one of them, but other people apart from those ladies might also feel the same way and not play at all.

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      I went to Angeli's house after playing RAN for more than 7 hours straight. I just chilled at her place, and we joined the fiesta after a while. Klawit Street sure is lively and community-oriented. Her cousin got us to watch some documentation named "Zeitgeist" and it kind of made sense. The ideology presented in the video looked full of meaning at first but I guess I found something to think about in the end.

      The idea in the film was that there are conspiracies everywhere so that someone will be able to manipulate the people through their thoughts and emotions. I've never seen/watched/heard a conspiracy theory so well thought of. Angeli's cousin's idea on the other hand is quite the same thing, but he focused on the fact that there is a reason for everything, and even emotions can be explained by logic and science. I don't remember if he also said something about religion. It was supposedly only there to keep other people's hopes up or something.

      My idea now is that all of the above may be true, but what good is seeing the logic in everything if everything feels like nothing? Those emotion-inducing chemicals in my brain were there for a reason: to make me feel good. For me, nothing beats trying to live life as if it were a fantasy. Being logical is important but there are some things that beat logic, and it's what gives our lives meaning. No matter how senseless our purpose in life may be, we all have the right to live like we want to.